Today, I hate my writing. I want to select all and delete my novel, all 80,000 words of it.
This ever happen to you?
Overcoming writing perfectionism is a lifelong journey. Perfectionism makes you rewrite dialogue and burn story notes. It’s got you by the throat, especially late at night, when it pins your eyelids back and forces you to brainstorm all the ways your story doesn’t make sense.
I think the problem here is that I’m spending too much time with my writing. Working on four and a half drafts in a few months is not normal, at least not for me, and a little distance is needed here.
So I focused my energies on other things.
I brainstormed ideas for SORROWBACON. This led to a doodling session. See illustration above. The “I don’t care” is in reference to the quality of my writing, and obviously a terrible lie, because I do care about quality, and I care a lot. But actions start with thoughts, and not caring is one step towards a more productive mindset.
I listened to music, specifically Ready for Salvation by Kalmah, on repeat.
Then I looked up Latin terms and phrases. It’s one of the many things Wikipedia is good for.
I laced up my sneakers and walked around downtown Toronto, rolling tabula rasa in my head over and over.
Tabula rasa. Blank slate.
I’ve done this Focus My Energies On Other Things when I hated my writing enough times now to know that it works.
When I get back to my apartment, I will be a blank slate.
And I will be able to write again.
Millie’s Note: What do you do when you are tempted to start over?